Forever Alone

        Life sucks...     I've been through a lot since I was three. I almost lost hope that my life wouldn't be so happy. I was just a nobody. Things started to change when I was five.  Until today. My life had beautiful colors. I managed to be someone special. Someone different. I've always wanted to be the person I am today but, why do I feel this way?     That was before. I started to become blind. I'm way different now. I admit. That I started to ignore everything that happens here in the world. I'm far from the girl who used to be so happy. I don't know why. I just felt like doing it. I haven't noticed it at first, until some days came that people started to treat me differently. Actually, I never really changed on the inside. I cry sometimes you know?      I used to be the smart lucky girl they admired. Sometimes, I wished to go back to the past and live there forever. Too bad, cause I can't do that. Sometim...

                           Why Can't I be Me?                      Close friends and pals pass by,                      Saying Hello and Bye.                      I'm showing my best smile,                      While millions of tears hide.                      Embarrassment takes place,                      Bitter and Sweet I taste.                      Challenged anger to race,                      Counting to ten in case.           ...

                           Goodbye  And Hello ...  The things that I've been used to and the things that I've been doing. Those I cannot forget. I can still remember moments I had when I was young. Laughing, crying over silly things, corny jokes with the person you used to be with. The person I used to be.  It hurts. I can never forget what happened. Everything changed. New surroundings and new friends. If I can only have one wish, I'd have him by my side. It has been a month and so. Sad and bitter tears fall every now and then. Trying to think of the first step to accept.   I've moved to a different place. Our province. I'm faraway from my home. The place where I grew up with "him".  People see me cry. Saying that I'm being dramatic, Over acting or whatever they call persons they don't understand.    I can still be happy. But not as happy as I ...

                         If only I could... I would...             If only I knew, I could have told mama. If only he told me, we could have done something about it. If only I knew how to save him, he could have been alive by now. Looking everywhere, listening here and there, it will never be the same again without him.                It all started at 5:34 in the morning, I woke up and got out of my bedroom cause I could hear my mum panicking. When I got out, I saw papa in a very difficult situation.. He couldn't breathe properly. He walked to our dining table and stood there for awhile. He kept changing his position. What I thought was he had his asthma attack or heart attack. My mama kept changing the fan's position. Mama didn't know what to do. Papa stood up straight and said he was okay and he wanted coffee. He sat down on the chair while I...

                                           Summer Life   It has been a long time not writing. Summer has passed and there's school coming again. Life. Well, even if I didn't get to enjoy like the other people like going to their provinces, going to beaches or any other things to feel happy during the summer.   I had a good summer vacation. I didn't got out of the house. Well, going to the shop is excepted. And going to your neighbor's house. All I did during the summer was wake up, eat breakfast, brush my teeth, take a shower, use the computer and read in Wattpad, eat lunch, brush my teeth, wash the dishes, use the computer again, sit and watch t.v., eat my dinner, brush my teeth again and go to sleep. And that's my morning routine. Well, not really only those things but I don't have to tell you every detail of what I do in my life.    When your ...

                                  Me, Myself and I   The girl who always do simple things. Also known as Alexis Mae. Yes! That's my name. I am cool in my own way. As usual, being a smart person in every place I go.   So, now you know my name, shall I tell you about my experiences? Yes? No? Ok, so in that case let me tell you more about myself. I go to school as a high school student. I get bad days, good days and I get just an ordinary one. My friends always act like they're in a jungle. They go crazy every time. My family cares about everything that happens in our life. Always going up and down also known as successful and failing.   I'll promise myself that I will always be humble but also proud of myself. I will be just who I am today and forever more. Doing what's best for my family and our lives. Being the best person I could be.

                                     Silly Dreams Again  Drip, drop, drip, drop, the water ran through my fingers as I look at the beautiful sea. I can see the sun setting already. It makes me feel like I'm in my favorite Anime Series. Pichi Pichi Pitch or in English, Mermaid Melody. I was alone, sitting on a big rock. Like I was the only person living on earth watching the sunset. Suddenly, "SPLASH!", I heard the water go. I looked around, there was no one there. I looked down on my feet but, there goes a splash again! Finally, I saw three heads pop out of the water. I thought I was just seeing things. They arose from the water and they were on land. They were mermaids! Their tail changed into legs and they were wearing clothes. Ok, I'm just imagining this, right? But, if it's just an imagination, why are they still there walking towards me? Oh My Gosh!      "Hi", ...

                                Just another Boring Day...  I had a day with my classmates ( as usual ). We went to our Specialization ( Creative Writing ). We wrote an essay about our personal experiences. I wrote about my Journalism Contest when I was in Elementary School. I don't what my teacher has to say about that. Well, right now I'm listening to my favorite Anime song ( Perfect Harmony ), they have really nice music and it makes you want to dance and sing along, Arashiki ko duo! shinjitsu no takarago! Yeah! Let's enjoy!   Just a boring Day eehh?... Everybody says it's always boring, that's because they don't know how to spend their time having fun. I know we have days that make us serious but the only medicine is smile.

                              Flashback Memories ...  It's already 2014, another year has arrived again. I'm not only thinking of the things I'm going to do this year but I also think of things I have experienced in the last few years, especially when I was in grade 5. My teachers, Classmates, Activities, Best Friends and other memories.  I always went out with my Best Friends during the weekends. Sometimes they would come to my house and visit. We would dance like crazy and all.  Aaahhh, it feels so good to look at these pictures again. And also these...  I've had so many things that I have learned from them, like making new friends. My Best Friends are Kate Collin, Jessica, Vivialyn, Samantha, Arvin, Irish, Aubrey, Paring and Reynante.   I know I have to move on and accept everything, if I could just build a time machine I would go back to the ...